Starting to get tired of messing about with the local department of health and pensions, also known as KELA responsible for keeping me alive at the moment.
Also, pissed off at my doctor who promised to sort my doctor's certificate out and send it to KELA but left for a vacation, and never signed the damn thing.

But most annoying thing is that the doctor's appointment is usually a week or so before my disability allowance ends, and an extension takes at least 3 months to process.
So now I have to temporarily apply for job seeker's allowance. But there is a catch. I have to wait for at least 3 weeks before my first claim and there is 5 weekdays they pay me nothing as it is a new claim. And I have to re-apply for housing benefit because it doesn't apply to me because I am not technically a pensioner any more. Of course, when they finally sort this shit out at KELA, they will cough up the difference, but that will be months away. Until then, everything non-essential is basically out of question. And there will be much applications to be filled again.

Now I have been without any income for almost a month. I have had to borrow the money for the rent, the bills and the food from my mother. And of course this shit had to happen the month when I needed to pay car tax, the car insurance, the rent, the internet, the phone and the electricity bill in which the power company severely underestimated my yearly power consumption, so I had to pay up the difference between the estimate and the actual consumption. Which means I had to pay almost triple to my normal electricity bill.

I have gotten tired of this. I wish I didn't have to face this alone. My strength is starting to fade.
And somehow I know that if my sick leave continues, I have to go trough all this shit again in January.
I hope Justin will be able to return before that. I am not whole without him.

P.S. Semagic LJ client seems to have a very shitty dictionary.
euros = Kurosawa.
internet = Internet

P.P.S. I probably need more userpics,
that happy rainbow-coloured frown just doesn't seem to fit to my general mindset.

Well, I am not sure if this is really me, but...

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You people who know me, please comment on this. Is it me, or someone else?
I am not sure. Parts of it fit, though.
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This is why a man can't find help if he's in a physically abusive relationship with a woman. I know guys who have been arrested after calling the police for being physically assaulted by his (ex) girlfriend. In this example, it's much more dramatic seeing a man physically push a woman around. But I don't think appearances is important here, it's the attitudes. If a woman really wants to, she can seriously injure a man (let's also not forget the taboo of ever laying a hand on a women, even in self defense). Men have been murdered by wives and the the wife is sympathized more times than not, and I'm not talking about the abusive relationships where the husband abused the wife. I wonder, where the hell is this "Patriarchy" I hear so much about? It's a lot closer to a Matriarchy.

People often ask me "how do you make those plushies/tails" or "how do you make the pattern". I don´t understand these questions. I... err... grab fabrics and start to sew? I grab a pencil and start to draw?

What do people mean by questions like that? What should I answer? I have no idea what they even want to know because making plushies and patterns is really just this simple: grab the fabrics and start to work. That´s what I do.

Just some ramblings of a lonely mad zebra. TMI and all that.
Just needing to vent...

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Blah... Tired.

If media is any measuring stick for oppression (as the first vid implies), then feminism's complaints are petty compared to what men face.

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Apparently this is what women need to be afraid of in our media culture: Compliments of good looks and a shrill woman being criticized for being shrill. Let's also not forget that all their sources are the cable news networks:



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This here is a stark contrast. It doesn't need to draw from the lowest of the media community (cable news channels), but commercials from across the western world and quotes by feminists - including Steinem, who has been quoted in both. Make sure to read the author's comments to the right of the video under "more..."



The women's only insurance is a close 2nd in most offensive material. But the AIDS commercial is absolutely sick.

Just a song that makes me feel kind of happy, in some strange way. Maybe because to me, it has got a hidden truth somewhere in there.
The futility of it all, and no matter what you do, happiness is just an illusion, and we all share a destination. :>

Scissor Sisters - Intermission

When you're standing on the side of a hill
Feeling like your day may be done
Here it comes, strawberry smog
Chasing away the sun
Don't let those precious moments fool you
Happiness is getting you down
A rainbow never smiles or blinks
It's just a candy coloured frown

You were going on at half-past seven
Now it's going on a quarter to nine
All the angels want to know
Are you lost or treading water?
And you're going on your fifteenth bender
But you've only got a matter of time
Yes we've all got seeds to sow
Not everyone's got lambs to slaughter

When the night wind starts to turn
Into the ocean breeze
And the dew drops sting and burn
Like angry honey bees
That is when you hear the song falling from the sky
Happy yesterday to all
We were born to die

Sometimes you're filled with the notion
The afterlife's a moment away
You want to tell someone the way that you feel
But then you ain't got nothing to say
You fight for freedom from devotion
A battle that will always begin
With somebody giving you a piece of advice;
By the way you're living in sin

Now there's never gonna be an intermission
But there'll always be a closing night
Never entertain those visions
Lest you may have packed your baggage
First impressions are cheap auditions
Situations are long goodbyes
Truth so often to living dormant
Good luck walks and bullshit flies

When the headlights guide your way
You know the place is right
When the treetops sing and sway
Don't go to sleep tonight
That is when you see the sign
Luminous and high:
Tomorrow's not what it used to be
We were born to die
Happy yesterday to all
We were born to die.

It's too bad I was too young to really understand these sort of interviews back when Donahue was doing his show. I really enjoy these interviews I've seen on youtube.

In this interview, Donahue asks questions about the nature of capitalism that I've heard all my life. Milton answers them by asking questions about the nature of socialism that aren't asked enough. Capitalism has a clear answer to life's questions about how man will be a self determining individual. For the first time in human history can a single man living in poverty become a multi-millionaire. It used to be that once you were born a serf you'd be a serf for the rest of your life. If you're not allowed to determine the direction of your life yourself, who makes that decision for you?



Is political self interest nobler than capitalist self interest? That's a good question because it's certainly the accepted notion in this country.

Donahue makes a good observation when he points out that capitalism doesn't reward virtue so much as who can best manipulate the system. Well, what is the system? In the States, it's who can manipulate the government to favor corporate interests. Idealistically, in a capitalist market, the system is free enterprise and competion to make the best products. Setting aside all problems of regulation for the moment, that's exactly the sort of system we want. The fact that you bought a computer and went with Intel instead of AMD or Apple is testament to that fact. Economically, the only role the government should have is in matters of upholding contracts between people, not favoring people with more money over those with less.

Paradox:

If x = 0/0, then 0*x = 0. If x = 2, then 0*2 = 0, and if x = 5 then 0*5 = 0. Since x = x, 2 = 5; whut?

Correction:

This is a perfect example of the layperson's misunderstanding of proper mathematical reasoning. In the realm of mathematics, the "equation" 0*x = 0 is not solvable for any other "value" other than x = 0/0. The process of setting x = 2 or 5 is doing nothing more than plugging in different values for x in the equation 0*x = 0. Upon doing so, and following the axiom that 0*(any number) always equals zero, one will find there is an infinite amount of solutions. But plugging in different values for x is not the same as equating x = 2 = 5. To do that, you'd need to start with the initial equation and reach the conclusion using nothing but the axioms of algebra.

June, 1st / 2008 - Simon's photo archive of pregnant animals has closed from this day. I've decided to close it down because of very personal causes. Please don't ask me why I did it - there is a lot of causes, and the lack of time - one of them. If you want to reopen it with all content that I had here - you can do it, I have nothing against it. Only one rule - there is NO MENTIONS about Simon Morrison in your site, even "Thanks for a lots of stuff". All stuff that I had here, always was free. So if you keep it somewhere in your HDD - feel free to do anything with it.
Many thanks to all who helped me with this site for eight years. Thanks to all visitors who probably found something interesting here. But now it's the last goodbye. Don't worry about me - I'm alive and healthy, with God's will, I just closed my site down. Farewell.

Simon Morrison.

http://wolfbar.servemp3.com/preganimal/


Just when I had a new picture for him to add too! I have a good idea what might of happened. Ah well...